A new year, a new beginning.

So much has happened in the past year.  I did not want this year to go by and next January say, why didn't I do anything.  I am so frustrated with being obese.  There are days that I can't move, bend, even sit to drive because my back is in so much pain.  I had an x-ray in 2011 and was told that my back curved in 2 different ways.  Well, it is time to help it out a little by getting this weight off.  I have no more excuses.  I had a hysterectomy last year and had all my labs done.  I don't have high blood pressure, I am not in the high risk category for diabetes, all my numbers were great.  And yet, I am obese.  I have been told all my life that I am big boned.  Well, yes I am, but these bones are tired of hauling around all this weight.

So, enough said, I am going to make the unlucky number 13, my lucky number.  This is going to be the year that I am going to do this.  The first week in January, I went back to my weight loss program.  Thursday was one month and I am happy to say, I have lost 12.6 pounds.  My personal goal is 10 pounds a month.  So, I am doing good.  Week 2 was very, very hard.  I felt sooooo hungry.  Week 3 was better, and week 4 was trying.  I still have my ovaries, so I still have the bloating and crankiness.  And boy, have I been cranky.....lol

To say this is getting easier is a lie.  It is still a daily struggle and I don't think I have convinced my brain that I can do this.  It seems that I fight with myself more and more.  I have found that I am not hungry, just bored or emotional.  I am just use to picking something up and munching whenever I feel like it.
I am learning to set little goals. 

 My first goal is 18 pounds.  I hope to be there before this month ends. 

What am I incorporating this month?  Eating a fruit or vegetable with every meal and snack.  I have found that my body thinks it needs to be fed every 2 hours.  So, I have my snacks, but I have a fruit or veggy with them.  It helps me to feel more satisfied

I record everything I eat, whether good or bad.  I am trying new dinner recipes to feed my boys.  Dinner time is the hardest time for me.  But I just need to have more salad, fruit and quit making homemade bread..........

Hears to month 2.    I can do this!