Addiction

How do you know when you are addicted to food?  

I heard this on the morning news program a few months back.  

If you see a donut:  

A-you say I can eat it but I will have to work it off  

B-no thanks, not worth it, or 

C-no thanks cause you don't want anyone to see you eat it, but you think about it all day long , it drives you nuts, and you can't rest until you eat at least one......

C is when you are addicted.  

I am addicted to food.  

Not sweets in particular, just food.  I love how it makes me feel good, satisfied, etc.  It has totally taken control of my life.  I do good on a diet for 2 weeks and then I just lose it.  And to make matters worse, I not only gain what I just lost, but an extra 10 pounds or more.  It is a no win situation for me.  

I did lose a significant amount of weight in 97.  I was exercising daily.  I looked good and then I had Aric....lol...I know that if I am going to get this weight off, I am not only going to have to exercise, but I am going to have to deal with my addiction.  

Luckily, there is a wonderful 12 step Christian program available.  I have been working with this program and have found the hope that I need.  My hubby is going to go with me to the next meeting , so he can understand what I am going through and learn how to be "supportive".  Just for your info, the steps I have been working on are:

1-admit that I am powerless to overcome my addiction and that my life has become unmanageable.

    Holy cow, how this is true.  My day is ruled by "what is there to eat" or "what can I bake"

2-Come to believe that the power of God can restore me to complete spiritual health.

    Hurry up already......lol....I know that I will get there.  This program has given me the hope.

3-Turn my will and my life over to the care of God the Eternal Father and His Son , Jesus Christ.

    I have turned it all over to Them. 

Those are the steps I have done and now I am working on.

4-Make a searching and fearless written moral inventory of myself.  

    This one is taking more time, more emotion, more self-awareness.  This one is getting to me. 

If you or someone you know would like to join me in this 12 step program, let me know.  I would love to have you come with me.   Any addictions, not just food.....

I have been walking and feel better overall, except for the soreness....lol..  Today I start 50 pushups a day.  Hey, if Martha Stewart can do it, so can I......

-Hollie